Feeling bereft. I lost my darling Dad just a couple of weeks before last Christmas. He’d been in hospital but plans were being made for him to come home, but he passed suddenly and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Just when I was starting to feel like I could start to get on with things again my amazing step-Dad died, totally out of the blue, at the end of April. He’s been in my life since I was 9 so just as much part of my life as my natural Dad. I’m now terrified of losing my Mum, though she’s pretty fit, and I think my husband feels like I’m suffocating him as I want to make sure that he’s okay all the time. I just feel like I’m losing the plot and wondering when I’ll feel “normal” again and wake up not feeling so low, and worried about losing the rest of the people in my life.
I’m Seaneen and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you’re feeling. I’m so sorry for the loss of your dads. With two such massive losses in such a short space of time, it’s completely understandable that you’re feeling so anxious and worried about losing other people that you love.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I wanted to share a few Sue Ryder resources with you that might be helpful.
Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
Our Grief Coach text service, which sends you personalised text support via SMS
Our free Online Bereavement Counselling which is held via video chat
Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through.
You might also want to read our support page on Losing a parent.
I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.
Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.