My Brother and Sister in law came to see me this afternoon. They had just been shopping and visited a garden centre . When they left I just broke down in floods of tears because I so miss doing such simple things with my husband. Listening to them just going about doing everyday things made me feel even more lonely .
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@Marl I’m so sorry that your relatives visit upset you so much but I can totally understand why. It’s those simple things that can have such an effect. We used to visit our local garden centre quite a lot during the spring and summer months buying plants for our garden but I don’t know if I can do that on my own. How our lives change. Sending a hug your way.x
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Hi Loobyloo . You would think 3 years on I would be feeling better about things but I a really miss my husband and just the little normal things we did . I went to a garden centre last year on my own but came out without buying anything I felt so lost dont think I will be going this year. Its so hard doing things on your own .
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I was sitting out in the garden this evening and thinking about how much my wife and I loved going to various garden centres. Nice little drive out in the countryside to one in particular. I was just imagining saying to my wife “Should we pop out to Cutts Lane Nursery and see what they’ve got?” I imagined her smiling and enthusiastically saying “Ooh yes”. But imagine is all I can do now. My beautiful Nicci died in September aged 46. Those simple things you mention are without doubt the things I miss the most in everyday life. Just simple pleasures doing things together.Normal life seems to carry on, and just for a second things feel normal, but then the realisation hits. So sorry for your loss.
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its even those little things like going the shops together, going for a coffee together, you dont realise at the time.
Id even go to B and Q with him we just enjoyed being in each others company.
He was only 47 i thought we had years of doing these things ahead of us. Its not fair, life is so cruel. Xx
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I completely agree with what you are all saying…. The little things are what I miss so much. Those impromptu drives out for lunch on a Sunday because the weather is nice, or looking round shops. We all take them for granted until they’re gone. 
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I totally agree, we used to go to the collectors and antique fairs, go out for a drive and check out the antique and charity shops, never knowing if we would see anything but that was the fun of it. Now i cant do that i would feel totally lost on my own. He loved his garden and would be out there for hours, its full of tropical plants, which i have no idea about. He would wrap them up carefully to protect them for the winter, sad to say but i cant do that so some of them will be lost. When we went on holiday we always found a garden centre to visit and he loved going to Trebah Gardens in Cornwall. Im missing all of that as i cant bear to go on my own. Its been 14 months since he passed away suddenly. You feel so lost and helpless as the things you enjoyed doing together are no longer possible
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It is just so hard to do anything on your own . We used to love going for a drive snd call in a nice pub for lunch cant help feeling so jealous of couples who still get to do thst 
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Its the same with holidays, we loved going to Cyprus every year, sadly thats all over now, i went to Butlins last year with my son and granddaughters but really felt as though someone was missing. Its so hard. I would love to go back to Cyprus just one more timebut couldnt face it on my own, maybe when i feel ready my son and daughter with the grandchildren would consider coming with me
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My husband had his leg amputated above the knee 15 months ago -he couldn’t manage a false leg so he used a wheelchair -we used to go out 4 times a week -we would go to Whitstable Minnis Bay and to local country parks -I would park somewhere where he had a nice view and I would take my spaniel for a walk -then we would go to Macdonalds on the way home -I still take my spaniel out everyday-I try to give him a really long walk but I find I having to stop for a rest I feel so tired and of course Tom isn’t waiting in the car for me when I finish my walk -we have a holiday booked in Wales in October but I can’t wait til then -I booked a cheap holiday in May for a week I just feel the need to get away -I will have my dog for company -it’s hard knowing what to do -my life has always been so busy -I worked as a clinical support worker on a cardiac ward -I have helped resuscitate patients but I couldn’t help my poor husband -I gave up my job to look after him and now he is gone -
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