My Dad passed away from cancer in November. My mum and I currently live together and have been supporting each other throughout. We miss him painfully every single day. We are very slowly starting to cry less and get on with new things like going to the cinema on a Wednesday and going out for meals. My 6 year old nephew stayed with his Grandparents every weekend since he was a baby and was my Dads best friend. He misses him dearly and talks about him all the time, children are so resilient. We keep it together for him all weekend and I make sure he’s still going out and doing the fun acitivites my Dad always did with him. On Sunday nights when he leaves, the house is so quiet and we are left at our worst, missing Dad terribly and talking about him with tears and longing. Today my nephews first tooth fell out and it was such a special little moment filled with laughter and joy. I got his little bag of money ready to pop under his pillow in the morning, and headed to bed…I am sitting in tears now, absolutely filled with the emptiness and sickness that I felt in the first few months. It has all come back and smacked me clean in the face, knowing how dad would have loved that moment, and thinking of the many, many moments he will miss going forward. It’s so very difficult to enjoy anything fully anymore, because someone so precious to us isn’t here to enjoy it too when they deserve to be. Mum always feels his presence missing in everything we do, and no doubt always will. He was snatched away from a life he loved, and the people that loved him, way too soon. He suffered and he fought right to the very end. I am always in agony now, at every special moment. I hope we can one day move forward enough to enjoy little moments fully again, as he would have hated the thought of us being so sad and broken. We both push forward in his name, with all the strength and resilience of his hardy character, but tonight…tonight I am weak, broken, and missing you to no end Dad.
I feel your pain honestly all the special moments and all of the new things I can’t believe Dad won’t be there to tell. I lost my dad in September they gave him a week to live and he lived a month and still spoke about Christmas. The pain in my chest is slowly easing and I didn’t cry yesterday for the first time since September. I know my Dad would hate to see me upset and not getting on with life. I wish you strength to carry on. Grief is such a strange emotion so different everyday but we must remember it is only because we love so much that we feel like this.
Thanks for your reply @Mrsknight16
I sometimes can’t believe I’ve gotten through a day without crying when I do, but I never stop thinking about him. Life can feel so unfair and death can be so hard to comprehend. I literally still hope every night when I wake up it’ll just have been one of those super real nightmares. I miss hearing his voice and seeing his face. I miss our conversations and his text messsages every day. I read over our WhatsApp conversations all the time, and can’t believe that a message from him will never pop up again. How can something so painful be real?
Sending love and strength to you xx
Never felt pain like it. I’m the same as you sometimes wake up and think please let this be a dream/nightmare.
Also I have my dad’s voicemails on my phone and sometimes listen to them to make me feel better. One day I smile at them the next day just cry. I am just hoping one day I will feel myself but I don’t ever think I will be the same again.
I try not to speak to family members about how I’m feeling as everyone has their own problems so thought coming on here would help me realise I’m just coping with grief and it has helped me. Reading everyone’s messages are so heart breaking but also there is so much love out there.
Hi, what you have said really resonates with me. My dearest Mum passed away just before Christmas and I feel so empty without her. My youngest lost his first tooth, like your Nephew, and I can’t tell her! Next week we find out what secondary school my daughter is going to and a couple of weeks ago my eldest became a teenager - all major things that their beloved Nana should be here for. But she’s not and I am heartbroken. How can it be real?!
I am so sorry for both of your losses, it really is the worst thing that can happen. Know that you are not alone xx
Hi,
I also miss everything about my mum.
Miss caring for her,taking her for appointments, shopping trips, weekends away,cinema outings just everything. Most of all I miss sitting watching TV with her and having our usual snacks.
I miss going shopping for her and getting her favourite food. Gosh I could go on and on but I can feel the tears do am going to stop now.
Love to you all and everyone missing their mums
Deborah x
Sending love your way Deborah, no one is as special to a daughter as her Mum 
x
Oh how I agree. It’s a very special unique bond and I am so privileged to have had a mum like I had. Totally indebted to her for everything she did for me , for all her wise words, for all her love friendship and support. Words will never be enough to convey how much I owe her for giving me such a wonderful upbringing .
Deborah x