Hi everyone . It’s approaching 2 years since the loss of my husband , my best friend and soulmate. My question is , does life moving forward sit beside grief . I have started to go out with family to events ( something me and my husband always did together). I went out with family and found I actually enjoyed myself for the first time . There was times throughout the night where it really hurt that he wasn’t with me ! Also I’m feeling guilty for letting myself enjoy the night , but I know he would want me to enjoy myself . How can we experience some joy , but then it hurts like pain twisting in your whole body that he’s not here I suppose I know the answer , that grief and emotions have to live side by side ,it’s such a rollercoaster . The pain that I feel is immense that he s not here anymore , he was only 52 and loved life it’s just not fair . Thankyou for letting me write my feelings down 
It’s so hard isn’t it, grief just hits you, it’s like a rollercoaster.
It has to get better, otherwise no one would carry on, all we can do is put one foot in front of the other
I feel guilty for doing nice things without my Husband but what’s the alternative? It feels like it’s sink or swim
We have to be kind to ourselves, it’s a horrible club to be in
Sally
Best wishes
Thankyou so much for your message , it means a lot . It’s helpful to know what I’m feeling is normal , like you say , no one wants to be in this situation x
Grief and emotions do live side by side, but as you progress through your journey, the grief reduces steadily, and the emotions return to something more like joy. In my experience, continuing being positive about moving forward is very good. It’s been 3 1/2 years for me, and I’m content again. Keep faith in your future.
My husbands just been given over to palliative care and Im wondering often how I will fare when he goes. Thanks for your positive words.