So my Ron passed away 11 weeks ago now. This last week has been really hard. I’m just crying most of the time and have no motivation. I’m due to go back to work in Jan and they’ve given me an easy step in but then a role that is well out of my comfort zone (I normally teach 4 and 5 year olds for last 17yrs and now they want me to teach 10/11 year olds). This has given me huge anxiety so I have told them but not heard back. I’ve started to take the medication I’ve been given and actually slept, I only woke up once and went back to sleep straight away. But the permanent knot in my stomach won’t go away and the reality of life now is kicking in. I’ve always wanted to live for me, now I only need to be here because of my dogs, daughter and grandson. How will I have energy to do anything? I know what has to be done but only get little bits done. I’m awake at 8 but only getting up at 11 daily. Just want to go to sleep and not wake up.