Just a thought. Everyone seemed to assume I would and many people in our situation do. I am staying because we chose this house and financially it makes sense. Emotionally it is awkward. I have taken over his bathroom and closet but his study is a dump I literally threw stuff in there and closed the door, now I have to find the tax forms for next month. I filled the house with plants and I think I can stay here but finding reliable help is not easy. To where I just gave up trying to find a cleaner or landscaper who could perform. So I live a la Steen lately, haha, not to my standards at all but nobody has gotten sick and the bills are paid. I can feel my convictions shifting so that’s good right, starting to accept this new life. I want to stay in my house when I feel ok that’s what I think and when I’m not ok I want to move to france where my ancestors lived. Which is a crazy idea I don’t even speak French and it would cost far too much. My husband was taking on a lot of personal healing and he broke down but he was able to start healing here, he loved this house. The door is open, however….