I’m really struggling here. My mum is currently in hospital in the end stages of her cancer battle.
I am poles apart from my husband. He just doesn’t get the daily trauma and devastation that is my life at the moment. He really really doesn’t. We are arguing all the time. He is not good at emotion whatsoever. I can tell he’s thinking just get a grip.
Back in November last year we were told by the consultant that the chemo wasn’t working, and the tumour had grown. It was devastating. I was in despair. 2 days later he went off to Abu Dhabi with his friend for 5 nights living it up at the Grand Prix.
Leaving me at my lowest, to try and absorb that information and care for my 2 children while supporting my parents. I can honestly say, I will never ever forgive him for going.
He is a good dad and is doing a good job of taking care of my youngest son who is 7. He keeps him entertained and takes him out while I can’t. I just can’t concentrate on him, I feel terrible but I can’t even function properly at the moment, like making his lunch etc or showering him. I can’t even think about cooking dinner either or plan what we are having. I’m just all consumed with what’s going on with my mum.
It’s taken me until now to try and scramble together new school uniform, I don’t know what I’ve ordered and can’t concentrate at all. Normally by now everything is sorted washed and labelled.
Anyone else experiencing this?