My beautiful mum died nearly 11 months ago in my arms after being with her through hospice at home.
She was a phenomenal person, I’m just so sad and mad that I’m 32 with 2 beautiful children of my own trying to navigate this
She was ill most of my life, my father was abusive throughout this but when I was 15 with lots of encouragement she finally decided to leave, and this 100% extended her life.
My biological father has nothing to do with me for the last 17 years, which I have made peace with and id rather shit in my hands and clap that have an abuser in my life, but I’ve no one to ask the questions that come into my head about my infancy
I’m mad that my mum is gone, sh was the best of all of us and lives so deeply within me, feels like I’ve had to fight all life for peace and safety, and now my beautiful mum is gone
I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling so angry. I’m so sorry to hear about your mum. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support. In the meantime, you may wish to look at these Sue Ryder resources which might be helpful.
Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
You can make an appointment with your GP and ask to be referred to counselling or support services in your local area. You may find that it is useful to find some support for yourself.
I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.
Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.