My Mum passed after a battle with a rare Cancer in 2024. Through out my childhood and until she died she was miserable. She had bad mental health issues and wanted to take her own life to get out of this world. Im struggling to greave as one I didn’t want to loose her but then she wanted it to happen. Im not sure how I’m meant to feel? Im numb and feel guilty that im relived for her! When she got diagnosed with Cancer she suddenly wanted to live. I couldn’t get my head round it! Had anyone else had this problem? I loved my Mum and miss her but also she was hard work. What can I do?
I’m so sorry for the loss of your mum, @ClarePear. It’s totally understandable that you have conflicted feelings given your mum’s mental health issues. Please do know that however you feel is okay.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support. In the meantime, you might find these Sue Ryder resources helpful.
-
Our Losing a parent page talks through some of the emotions you may be experiencing
-
Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
-
Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through
Take good care and keep reaching out,
Seaneen