I lost my mum in November to cancer I’ve gone back to work and I have started to gain back some normal days but there will always be a big hole in my life and heart without my mum. I still have that pain and cry but I am now every now and again feel she is with me. I saw a robin on way to work when I really needed to have mum with me . I still feel empty still feel like she should still get here but for the love of my mum I keep trying to live and have happy memories. I am still struggling but I am also strong . I wish I could talk to my mum . She would tell me she loves me and is telling her the same . I went away over Easter and I thought she was with us like id forgotten she had gone …I miss my mum so much . I wish I could have one more day to talk to her. I just wanted to post to feel like someone understand my pain even though I’m getting on with life. .. I m crying writing this cos I just wish I could have my mum back .I worry my dad is lonely and the pain he feels. I feel like the pain stays but hides .. then pops up again. Love you always mum xxxx
I think your mum would be so proud of you.
It isn’t easy, but you are doing as well as anyone could under the circumstances. The loss of your beloved mum has left a massive chasm in you and your dad’s life.
My lovely mam passed away a month ago. She was 82 years old and we had lived together for 60 years. Like you with your mum, I miss her so much. I sometimes think of things and think I will tell mam. I cry desperately in the house alone knowing my life will never be the same again.
I wish there was something that we could do to make it all better. It is hard. Living day to day isn’t what I ever imagined. Mam was my life and I was hers. Keep posting on here. I think talking to people in the same situation helps a little at least. God bless you and your family. Best wishes. Stephen
Thanks Stephen you too we keep fighting on
Thanks catinawig
Sadandnumb, I can feel the deep love that you and your Mum had and the lovely relationship that you had. That is exactly how I feel, 6 months after Mum died - as though Mum has not really gone. I don’t think that I can cope with the enormity of it and when grief pops up like you said, it hits and the tears come. Like you, I am getting on with life, but I wish so much that Mum was here. I struggle that I didn’t get to say goodbye to Mum. I guess she knew that I could not have and so our love continues, is endless, like your Mum and you.
Thank you sparrow 2 …..yes sometimes I feel bad tho as I think I should cry all the time to show I loved her so much ….but then I remember my mum’s pain of when I was sad and she would not want it… but I still miss her and wish she was her to just hug chat and be with xxxxxx