I’m really struggling, I lost my mum on Saturday due to alcohol, I didn’t speak to my mum for 30 years, till last week when my brother told me she was dying, that in itself killed me as I had locked all that away for many years. I finally went to see her and I felt a relief tbh and I felt like it was ok, but then she died and now my brother just doesn’t want to talk to me, is it normal to feel that you want that closeness with your family I just don’t know.
Sorry for the loss of your Mum. Even though you hadn’t seen her for many years until recently, you will still be grieving. It sounds like this has brought back a lot of emotions for you. Perhaps you will be able to talk to your brother once things are not quite so raw for you both. Take care, best wishes xx