I believe my mind is protecting me from what I saw my husband go through.All I ever think about him is as a very fit,virile man.He was in the army for 22 years and he was fit to look at and was physically fit too.I just see him like that all the time.Our life as it was.Is my mind really protecting me and one day will his older very ill face come sharp into focus and cut through my fog.I honestly don’t know.All I can say is I don’t want to see his younger self or remember all the good times.I find it all too painful.Does /has anyone experienced this.
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@Tearful I’m the opposite. My memories of my husband are clouded by his battle with cancer, the treatments and the side effects. His last few weeks in pain and suffering. I wish I could have more happier memories of him when he was healthier, fitter but these are more difficult to recall. This whole journey is painful one way or another. Take care.
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I don’t know which is worse thinking of them as old,frail and so very ill or young ,fit and healthy.I know his last two weeks were horrendous for him.He died at home.I hardly had any help with him.I nursed him 24/7.I think my mind is protecting me.Sorry for your loss and what you are going through x
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So sorry for your loss.l had very little help with Garry as well.he passed away here at home having been diagnosed 6 weeks earlier.l remember how ill he was this time last year.& what he went through.its having empathy for another human been & proves how much we loved them.its now nearly a year for me & memories of happier times are steeping through.Sending you love & light XX.
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@Jan17 I’m the same. I keep looking at photos of when my husband was younger but I still cant get out of my mind the way he was these last few years. Ann x
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I’m the opposite too. All I can see is him at home and in hospital suffering and in pain.
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