Ive just lost my partner 4wks ago and im finding it so hard without her we were together everyday and loved each other so much, i cant believe im never going to see her again, our home is so empty without her
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I am so sorry for your loss , and you’re on the grief journey none of us wanted to be on . The early weeks are so difficult . I cope by keeping busy. Getting out in the fresh air by walking my dog . Take one day at a time . Focus on one thing at a time . Look after yourself 
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Thank u, i keep busy but shes always on my mind i just cant picture my life without her
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Hi go wondie
I am so sorry to hear of your loss it is hard not easy at all I lost my husband in 2020 and we where always together just like you and your wife snd yes my house is so empty no children no friends only me .
Sweetlady
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Hello, my husband passed away 8 weeks ago, and my husband is always on my mind, no matter where I am or what im doing, im thinking of my husband, I go to bed and I talk to him, . Hes the first one I wish a good morning to. Maybe in the future it’ll ease up some but for now my husband is my constant companion, if that makes any sense. Take care and God bless
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Thank u that makes perfect sense, i do the same say goodnite to my partner and good morning, her death was very traumatic and unexpected as she was regularly in and out of hospital only this time she didnt come home.
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Hello, same here, my husband in and out of hospitals, I thought I was bringing him home once again, but sadly 
not this time. Very traumatic for me as well. God bless
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Dear Gwonder!
I’m also new here. My most beloved husband died last year and I still cry every day, even at work when nobody can see me. As well as Sweetlady said, after the horrific pain comes the loneliness who became my best friend. I live in a foreign country and also have no family here. My best friends live in the country I come from that is 10 000 km from here. The worst for me is a tremendous anxiety every morning when I open my eyes. It’s evening now and I’m dreading to go to sleep again. Days are getting better, because being busy helps to stay mentally sane. My big comfort is being in my garden with my birds where I can feel the happiness for a while again. Try to take it little by little, do the things bringing some joy, anything that could give you a comfort… This forum is full of kind and understanding people and for me it’s a real balm for soul. We are all here for each other…
Janka
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Dear Gwonder,
My beloved wife Fanny passed away in August 2025.
Our hearts and souls merged and we became „one“ a very long time ago.
Even though she passed, she’s still with me, I talk to my darling every day and she’s looking out for me from Heaven.
One day you will be reunited with your beloved partner and that reunion will be forever and always.
Until then please take good care of yourself.
Kind regards - Joe
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Hi wonderful
I was lucky I suppose if you can call it that I did get my husband home as in covid time you whete only allowed 1hr to visit I gad asked the day before if I needed to book an appointment to see him they said they would ask the doctors in the morning they did and told me you can come in anytime my brain never thought about it and off I went I could not wait to spend all day with him even although he was not talking to me just to be with him was enough when I got there the doctor wanted to talk to me and tell me paul had 24/48 hrs left to life i told her I want him home as I had made a promise to him if anything bad he would come home and very at peace there i had a wonderful care company who helped me and we got him home and he settled into his bed my brothers came to see him and my nephews and niece he was very loved by my family his own stayed away I got 1 hour with him not the time the doctor said and I was devastated I thought I had a bit more time but no I did not have that time I am grateful to my care company for helping me get that 1hr with paul but I do miss him a lot I always will.
Sweetlady
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Hi, I m so sorry for your loss. I lost my partner seven and a half months ago and I’m still struggling. At four weeks you’re still probably in a state of shock and everything seems unreal. I found that getting out of the house into the fresh air helped me. Even just going for a coffee was a distraction. If you have family and friends lean on them for support. Keep posting on here, everyone understands the grief journey.
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Yes still cant believe it, i have family and friends but every1 seems to have moved on while im devastated, maybe me being in limbo, i think im ok then tears come from out of the blue. We had so many plans then its all just erased. So hard
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Hi Janka, I get that anxiety surge in the morning as well, Jolted awake by my adrenalin. I don’t find the breathing exercises much help so I just get up. I’m now seven and a half months following my partner’s sudden death and I really don’t feel any better but I function from day to day. If I could get rid of the anxiety I think I could cope better. I don’t know how long you’ve been away from your own country, but would you not be better returning there? I presume you still have family connections.
My partner was Greek Cypriot but although he’d been in Scotland for almost fifty years. I think if I had died he would have returned to Cyprus. He did have friends here but it’s not the same as a supportive family.
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Hi @Gwonder
If you have tears let them flow, you can’t stop them . We had some many plans holidays , days out . My husband was working towards his retirement.All now gone. It’s 8 months today since I lost him . It still early on for you , it good you have support from family and friends. Friends go back to their normal lives . While we are left to carry on . Look after yourself
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That’s absolutely normal. My darling wife passed away almost 9 months ago and I still get those tearful moments.
Reasons / triggers and manifold, a song on the radio, some memories, but sometimes these moments come without an apparent reason.
After a short while I‘m okay again.
But these moments are not as frequent and severe as in the first weeks.
It’s a very long and hard uphill struggle but things will slowly improve as time passes.
Take care and stay safe!
Kind regards - Joe
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Really sorry for your loss - my husband passed away 4 weeks ago today and I’m not sure how I’m going to get through my birthday without him tomorrow but I’m guessing it’s all these firsts that we have to do and there’s no one way to do it. Having this group is such a comfort I hope you find that too xx
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Dear Norma,
I don’t have much of family left and they live their own lives. I do miss the two of my best friends though who mean to me more than my own family. We’re still connected and even at a distance they’re the best help. Verizon gave me 120 minutes to my country, so at least I can talk once a week. I have my dearest home here, my house full of memories of the greatest love of all, my lovely house I take care of and a huge garden with birds and other animals with a pond, trees, 80 feeders and 20 solar fountains that me and my most beloved husband were building together, my fairy land I can never give up, my everything. It’d be much better and easier if I’d have my best friends here, but I can’t imagine to leave this all and live like a city girl again. I live high in the mountains, it’s a paradise to me. If I’d lose my house, it’d completely break my heart and going home would be a one way ticket, but I do my best to save my home. You made me smile when you mentioned Greece. It was a part of our honeymoon. We got married in Denmark and then in church in USA again. We saw Santorini with a breathtaking view as a part of our cruise ship. I like your name. It reminds me of my favorite opera from Bellini. This forum is a balm for my tortured soul…
Janka
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Thank u my birthday nxt week too and my partner was hoping to be out of hospital by then after a 3mth stay, sadly not to be
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I’ll have my birthday the next week as well… 
Janka
Hi Janka, Norma is just my username, my actual name is Noreen, it’s Irish. My parents came from Donegal in the north west of the Irish Republic. I’m afraid I’m a real peasant when it comes to opera but my partner liked it. He used to listen to Maria Callas the Greek/American opera singer. He had a wide variety of musical tastes. The only things he didn’t like were country and western and the more modern rap/ hip-hop genres.
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