Hello, I just don’t know where to start, my Nan passed away last week and I am not coping well with it all.
She was 87 and passed suddenly last week, I was the one who found her as 17 years ago I left my life behind to come back to help look after her.
I had been going in daily to bring her food and do any little jobs etc she needed, and had only spoken to her the night before, when she didnt answer the phone I went to hers and found her in bed.
I did all the right things, phoned the ambulance gave a statement to the police and spoke with her doctor, but part of me is very angry. She had a serious form of blood cancer and had been having transfusions but never explained once that it was cancer, her doctor told me after.
I feel like I am being pushed out by other family members, who have taken over everything, funeral arrangements, clearing her house out, she had also changed her will that the funeral is family only and none of us knew this.
I feel very angry that she changed so much without telling us and I feel raked with guilt about feeling this anger.
I have barely slept and stress/anxiety always hits me in the stomach so I have been vomiting quite a lot and feeling I am constantly saying the same things over and over.
Does it get easier? I just feel so much in limbo.