I lost my partner 3 months ago tomorrow.
Im struggling so much
I cry all the time. Im on a high dose of anti depressants but i dont feel any different. every day is a struggle
I have beem forwarded to the mental health team but have heard nothing. If it wasn’t for my 3 beautiful adult children i really wouldnt be here
Feel i got no one to talk to as i dont want to upset them any more than they already are. Ive recently physically hurt myself jist so i could feel that pain instead of the pain in my heart
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Hi, i hope you find comfort on here. Grief is a horrible, horrible feeling and emotion to go through. You say you have 3 adult children who have provided you comfort, do they know how you are feeling, especially when you said you wouldnt want to be here anymore? The important thing is as hard as grief is and like you say you dont want to be here anymore, imagine if your children lost you, life is very cruel when we lose loved ones, and as hard as it is we need to spend time with loved ones as life is so so short. I am sorry for your loss and i do hope you find comfort on here, take care of yourself x
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Nigellen, So sorry for your loss, I do understand what you are going through, I cared for my darling wife for 20 odd years. My Darling was diagnosed with Parkinson’s in 1994, I stopped my full time job in 1999 and went part time and then self employed so that I could spend more time with her and look after us. That you cared for your partner for 15 years shows just how much you loved them. Now you have such a huge hole in your life having cared for them. Be kind to yourself , you have done such a wonderful job looking after your partner. I look back and find some happy memories that I had with my Elizabeth and hang on to them. Yes they can make me cry but it is does lighten things for me. My Darling left me in April 2024 and I will always love and miss her. I am now with the help of others, like on this site, starting to manage the grief a little better. They say that Grief is the price of love. If that is that the price I have to pay for the 52 wonderful years I had with my Elizabeth and the two wonderful children she gave me. So be it I would do it all again. Come on here for a chat , rant or even a ramble, we all understand, as we are all on this hard journey. Sending you a big hug like from one of your children
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