Not wanting to live

Me and my partner were together for 10 years. We have a year old daughter. He was 31 years old when he passed on 9th feb 2023. He was suffering with chronic liver failure. I was his full time carer. I love him with all my heart. And i think if it wasnt for our daughter i would have joined by now


So sorry for your loss. I was a full time carer too before my husband died on March 4th this year, He’d had Alzheimer’s and dementia for a number of years. It’s hard because there’s nothing to do no ,and it leaves just emptiness. Hang on in there, there’s plenty of support and comfort to be found on this site.


I’m so sorry for your loss. 31 is no age :sob:
I’m 38 and lost my partner of 17 years two weeks ago completely out of the blue. He just collapsed and died. We are still waiting for the post mortem results so we don’t even know why. It’s horrendous to lose someone you loved so much. I also have thoughts that I don’t want to live any more. This life is just full of loss and heatache and just so bloody senseless at times. I honestly don’t know why we have to go through it. What’s the point of it all?
I hope you find a way to get through it because your daughter needs you x


Hello Panda89

I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling. I’m so sorry to hear about your partner. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.

I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I wanted to share a few Sue Ryder resources with you that might be helpful.

I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.

Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.

Take care,

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Hello Panda89 and LostLil, I am so sorry for your losses, you have my deepest sympathy. It’s coming up to three years since I lost my beautiful wife to Covid and I must say I’m feeling pretty desperate. I understand your feelings of worthlessness. too. You have both been bereaved at such a young age, it’s nothing short of tragic! I hope you gain some sort of comfort from those who sadly find themselves here. I hate the fact that my poor wife caught Covid right at the start of this awful pandemic and due to an underlying condition was not able too fight it off. We had so many plans like so many on this forum. Grief really sucks doesn’t it?


Sorry for your loss. It’s horrible to think you still feel this way after three years. I know I’ll never get over losing my OH but I hope in three years I’ll be able to remember him fondly without breaking down. I’ll always love him, he was the person who knew me best in the entire world. Jumping into bed at the end of a bad day and having a cwtch with him made everything better. He’d always find something funny to say even in the worst circumstances. His sense of humour was awesome. Yes, grief does truly, truly suck :broken_heart::sob:

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