I can hear my Richard saying t me in his abrupt tone and voice when i am saying to him in the morning it is cold in hear i am putting the heating on…he would say from his bedroom or wherever he was during the day…" well put the heating on " I always thought his tone was abrupt but it was just his way of telling me if i am feeling cold to just put the heating on then, nothing more nothing less…of course now it is me taing over all the houselhold bills as he done this from day one when we started living together 18 years ago so i had no idea even of what we were paying let alone who we were using for our water, our heating, our gas suplers, you see he was the old fashion type, taking good care of the household bills and providing well for me…To say i am reluctant each time i put the heating on, i make sure it does not stay on all day ;like it once did, i am now the one who has to cut back with the spending, the utility bills, before i had no worries as this was from day one taken care of by my Richard…It is not just the sudden and unexpected loss of ones partner but the after effects we are now faced with taking over the home running responsibility…
Jackie…