Packing up, time to go..

So… got back from the mountains to London, to my little flat in Highgate. I bought this spot nearly 10 years ago. About now, ten years ago, I was doing my first viewing. I loved this little flat, felt happy here, felt safe.

Shortly after I moved in, so December 2013, I met the love of my life, Tom. We were here in this flat pretty much Monday to Thursday, for years. Entertaining, cooking, ok - yes, sharing the bathtub, sharing the bed, sharing the shower, sharing it all. This place was our place.

Until June 2021. When we went back to Kent, not thinking for a moment that we would not return. Early July, 2021, he collapsed. Rushed to hospital. I got the doom call the next morning… and he/we never came back to here, our Highgate flat, our little spot. He stayed in hospital, until he died, in January 2022.

I have been back here, after he died, a whole bunch of times. Sorting, sifting, trying to be here without him, struggling, too many tears. Never, ever, slept in our bed. Only the sofa. Because, well, I just couldn’t. Fast forward to now, the flat is under offer to a young couple that love it, that really love it, that want to start their lives together right here.

So, tonight, I sleep in our bed for the first time in since June 2021, This is a big deal. This weekend, I am sifting, sorting, moving stuff out. By Monday, it will all be done. I am ready, and not ready, all at once. All I know is that tomorrow awaits, and there are boxes waiting.

Friends, can you help me make the next step?

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You are strong enough for this next step. You have come such a long way. And to finally sleep in your bed, I hope it gives you comfort.

Be very proud of yourself, it’s been a huge hard hurdle for you but your doing it.

Well done and good luck stepping into the next stage . Small steps forward always x

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We sometimes wonder where we get this strength from but somehow it appears and we surprise ourselves. You have been so brave and oh so strong :muscle: take heart in the fact that the new couple will come to love your little flat as much as the both of you did. You’re doing amazing and I’m sure your partner would be so proud of you.

Much love
Georgina x

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You are ready to move to the next phase of your life.you will be happy again in time.you have come so far.& are so brave.

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We’ve got you @Vancouver, you can take your next step, you wont fall, you will fly. Much love xx

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@Vancouver. My heart goes out to you. I empathise completely with your heartbreak. How hard this must be for you but, as @Georgie15 says, the strength comes from somewhere. It is amazing what the human mind and body can cope with when put to the test. You will take your next step as you have taken the steps since you lost your darling husband and we will all be here to support you. Love and strength to you. Jean xx.

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Thinking of you, each step is a positive one and it sounds like your flat will be much loved.

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Take comfort in the fact that you’re passing the happiness on to a young couple who will love it and enjoy it as much as you have. You’re ready for this.

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@Vancouver
All these closing of doors are yet another reminder of finality and endings, however, when one door closes another one opens and you will in time open new one’s offering new beginnings. The flat has clearly been blessed with love and a new beginning for another couple young and in love. Know also that the love you and Tom had will be with you wherever you go. Leave the flat with gratitude that you were fortunate to have happy memories there which will be forever imprinted in your heart.
You have come a long way, just one more push and you are on the way to a new chapter.
You got this and we are all behind you
Love
Lyn
X

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@Ali29 @Georgie15 @Ava2 @sandi @Jean8 @Freefaller @Lucy55 - thank you, thank you my friends - your words have really helped and I go forward into today and the weekend knowing that you are there, just a quick post away if I need a boost as I dismantle things here. The moving team come at 11am to size up the job they will do when the sale completes next month. Again, a time for me to pull myself to my full 5 foot 6 and stand tall. Thank you for being with me - it means more than I can say x

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@Sarlyn Thank you, thank you - your words are so true and so helpful. Have a lovely day today and thank you for being with me on this road x

We can never go backwards, only forwards, we can’t change what has happened and we are still here for a reason. Find that reason and live for it. Big hugs x

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@Vancouver
Thinking of you today and hope all goes well. You can do this x

@Sarlyn, Many, many thanks, my friend. It was hectic - more stuff winched out to come to my rental than I thought. Lots of boxes, lots of trips up and down the stairs. But done. All is safely gathered in, pending the next move. That said, I still feel a bit wobbly. It is all so final - although necessary and the right time, it is still a wrench. Sending loads of love to everyone on here who feels wobbly today xx

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What counts is you did it! A wobble is ok and yes it must have been heart wrenching but be proud of yourself. Hopefully a new and positive chapter for you now x

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Well done.you did it.you are moving on.one step at a time.look how far you have come.keep moving forward.its going to be alright.

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@Vancouver , that must have been tough. Thinking of you and thank you for your posts. It has helped to think others understand.

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@Vancouver - its also turning the page and bringing everything you need along with you for the next chapter, including your Tom. Nothing but love xx

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Turning the page without without your soulmate being part of the next chapter is damn hard. But the story must continue. You’re doing him proud. I wish you every happiness you deserve. A very brave lady who I am taking inspiration from. Bless you darling xxxl

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