My husband died after a short illness six months ago. I feel I am living in the middle of a nightmare. I wake all the time in the middle of the night, turn over and he is not here. He was my absolute soulmate and we’d been together for 29 wonderful years. I just miss him beyond belief and am so desperately unhappy.
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I understand how you feel, I lost my beloved husband in November to cancer, I only had 4 weeks with him from the diagnosis.
We were together 22 years.
Im so sorry for your loss
My husband died just after we came back from holiday nine weeks ago, I had no warning, and didn’t get to say goodbye, I found him in his chair, gone forever. We too, were together twenty nine years. and I feel the same as you, my life changed instantly, I cannot contemplate living without him, he was everything I wanted, such a lovely, kind family man, the house is no longer a home without him, I can feel your pain. I send you my love xx
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Hi my husband paseed away 19 months ago last week end was our 40th wedding anniversary…im totally lost 
but im sure one day we will start our diffent life …our lonely life and move on xx
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It is very hard to see a different life without my husband, it’s not one I envisaged at this time.
I am unable to contemplate the future, it’s only been nine weeks and it seems to get worse once the realisation that he has really gone, sets in.
I am still constantly crying, for the times we could have had together, for the pain it has caused our children, and for the not knowing if he suffered.
I send you my love and condolences xx
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I can only just send you so much love. My heart is truly broken, as your is xxxx
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And I send you my love too. This is a terribly lonely time, that I wouldn’t wish on anyone. xxxx
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It’s so hard isn’t it? I thought I understood when people lost their partners, but I had no clue till it happened to me. My condolensces for your loss.
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Matilda11
I’m the same as you. My husband died nearly 5 months ago
after a short illness and I keep thinking I’m having a nightmare and I
will wake up soon. It’s all been surreal. I can’t believe it’s happened.
Friends and family although very kind really don’t understand
what I’m going through and say the most tactless things. It’s like
they think I should have stopped grieving now! I feel so alone.
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You are not alone on here.
It’s good to talk to people going through the same as me.
I also thought I knew how people felt. I now know I didn’t have a clue. You will find help on here and you’ll find out that whatever you are feeling and the emotions you are experiencing are also being felt by others on here.
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It is like a nightmare its horrid beyond belief im so so sorry you are now part of this world on here its not a place anyone should be in but unfortunately we are and its not nice there are some amazing people on here that know where your coming from all to well even though everyone deals with it in there way we are here to support each other on this road its terrible trying to get used to not having that one true love not there now i too am in that terrible place my Linda passed on 8/10/24 she was 53 and we together 14 years but knew each other for about 20 and was due to marry this year linda was my soulmate my best friend and love she went into hospital with jaundice one day started to improve i was told could be home in few weeks then caught covid that took her in 3 days its broken me beyond anything else i get it sending my love and thoughts to you big hug
Martin 
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I am so sorry Martin. I would never wish this on my worst enemy. Johnny was my true soulmate and it really is a desolate place without him. How on earth do we all come to terms with this. Hugs x
Thank you. It’s pretty terrible to say the least and you are right, no one really understands unless they have been there. Sending love xx
Oh my goodness, I honestly totally understand. I so dread the night time wake ups and for a few seconds you don’t know what has happened and then it hits you like a ton of bricks. The reality is just so dreadfully painful to bear. Sending you love xx
@Matilda11 i wish i had the answer i truly do if i had a magic wand id reverse all the loss i could that people are suffering my wish would be no one ever have to go through this pain i know its happening but its far to many if there is a place after this then it must be very full of special people grief they say is the price of love its a heavy price but true love is a very special thing so i guess it has to have a high price im so sorry to hear of your loss of your Johnny your soulmate i get that desolate feeling i truly do losing my Linda has left me empty my heart went with her that night im just a shell now im sending you a big hug as my linda gave fantastic hugs so hopefully some of her magic comes your way
Martin 