This is my first time posting. My mum died 9 months ago. Still can’t believe it when I say those words. These days, I can’t seem to sleep. My sleep wasn’t too bad for the first 6 months or so, but recently is increasingly poor. I go to sleep then wake up in a panic, thoughts of my mum rushing through my head. It’s so painful.
I have a wonderful partner but have found friends have not been supportive. Feel very alone, even my family aren’t talking much about her. How can it have come to this? We were a family and now no-one wants to talk about her.
I don’t know how I can cope without sleep. I would like to be somewhere vey peaceful for a while, so I can rest and recover my strength but I live in a tiny flat with noisy neighbours! The world feels very unfeeling and hard.
So here I am, at 2.30 in the morning, typing out of desperation really.
I miss her more than I can ever say. It’s unbearable.