I’ve just had ( another), meltdown.
This time over changing the duvet cover. It a silly thing but it’s hard to do on your own, then it leads to memories of “ happy times” in the bed, and the realisation you’ll never see them again.
I’m crying again.
I had a meltdown this morning loading the washing machine. It is something he did in the last few years as I am not particularly stable.
I really didn’t sleep last night so I am very very tired.
Cried again hanging it up as he would always tell me I was doing it wrong…
I filed some paperwork today one piece of which was the transfer of his personal pension to me. I am really getting through some tissues today. Cup of coffee and cake has made me feel slightly better but just wondering what will be next to set me off today.
Normally better than this.
@Paddy53 So sorry, I know how you feel and yes, it’s the little things that catch you, things that he did or you did together which brings back memories and the realisation that he will never be able to do these again. Mine was topping up the salt and rinseaid in the dishwasher. Never did it before, had to check the manual. Then cried.
It’s ok to cry because you miss him.
Take care and I hope the rest of your day will be more tolerable.
Love and hugs. xx
I know it is hard, My son had a carer ,which he paid towards,the council are always behind with taken payment out. We got a invoice for a month owed, it was not the money, just opened up another sore .
And now I’ve had a load of stuff from HMRC. That’s going to be left for another day….
It is awful I was crying this morning as my granddaughter wanted co co melon on and he would always singalong with her it’s so hard x