I’m so sorry you’re having such a difficult time at the moment, feeling angry, lost and sad. Losing both parents is incredibly painful epecially when you’re so young.
I lost my Mum 4 years ago and was devastated. There are times I still feel lost and scared and I’m now 47. I do understand the anger you feel. Life is incredibly unfair. I struggle when I see people my age or older who still have their Mums. That’s not fair I think. You are not alone.
It’s possibly not surprising that your husband doesn’t understand, you do need to have experienced immense loss and grief to know how life changing it can be.
When my Mum died my husband (now ex - it was a bad marriage) thought he could simply replace my Mum. How wrong he was. No-one replaces the connection you have with parents. I still feel lonely sometimes today as I used to talk to my Mum about anything & everything.
I had some bereavement counselling which really helped me. I could express my anger, fears, devastation to someone neutral who didn’t judge & I had no-ongoing relationship with. It might be worth you thinking about it?
You are not alone, there are lots of wonderful supportive people in the community who will also understand what you’re going through.
Please keep talking to us & take care. Trudy x