It’s been nearly a month now since my wife of just 50yrs passed away from a very short battle with cancer. I promised I would cope but every day it gets worse. I barely function and sleep only a few hours a day. I wish I’d have gone with her. Life seems so pointless now with the huge void this has created. I miss her so much it’s tearing me apart.
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I wish i could tell you something positive, but being in the same boat as you all i can say is you arent alone in feeling like this.
This group can often help, and if nothing else, you soon reslise the amount of people that are in the same position as you. Sending you prayers & strength.
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So sorry about your wife’s passing. You’re in this nightmare we all find ourselves in. I’m five months down the line after my partner’s sudden passing. In the beginning I slept very little, too many racing thoughts. I’m sleeping a bit better now but waken early. I wish I could say you’ll feel better soon but the grief monster is relentless however, and just when you think you feel a bit better it’s waiting for you round the corner. If you can try not to isolate yourself. I hope you have family who can support you. Take care.
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Goose1919
I’m so sorry to hear of your loss.
You are hurting so much. One month into this grief storm really is very early days.
From my experience (now 4mths in this storm as of yesterday) the first months are dealing with necessary paperwork legal documents etc so you adopt a robotic life.
Then when that’s done what is there?
Life is very lonely, the days are very long, friends / family go back to their normal lives.
Where does that leave us?
We still hurt, we still shed tears, we wish with all our heart we could turn the clocks back but we cannot do that.
Our memories are precious, we know we must carry on as our loved ones would want us to, we have to find our inner strength to do this.
It may take us a long time, we do have a future though very difficult to see in the midst of this storm.
Take each day as it comes, do give yourself time, look after yourself!!!
Thinking of you - take your time 
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