i lost my dad 2 and a half weeks ago. it was completely unexpected, he was well as far as we all knew but he had a cardiac arrest in the night after work. my parents are split up, i have a stepmum and a stepdad and my sisters dont get on well with my stepdad, so they are taking a lot of the grief of my dad out on my mum. im the youngest (25) and my parents split when i was in primary school.
im autistic andi just cant cope with the change in behaviour around everyone, knowing that i cant text him anymore or see him in person. our relationship was kind of difficult as we lived far away from wach other, but it got closer when i moved to uni and in turn was closer to him. he then got busy with work over the last two years so i didnt get to see him a lot, which i have a lot of guilt about.
i feel like i cant really talk to my family about my grief in its entirety, because its intense for everyone, but also i dont want to stir up more family drama. how do you cope with all of this change in the people around you? does it get easier, do people move on from their ill feelings to eachother? i just want to grieve my dad and it feels like this is all getting in the way
