Hi William
Your circumstances resonate with me! It’s really hard and it never seems any easier. Something a friend said to me which struck home was do what she wanted you to do and what she would do. Life is too short and squeeze every last drop out of it. It’s a bit hard to do I know but in time that advice will stand by me. Don’t rush yourself this journey is a very personal one there are no rules. Be kind to yourself and some day the happy memories of all those years will be a blessing to you.
Take care j x