I lost my partner to suicide on 30/01/24 and my life has been a mess ever since… he was the love of my life… the only one who got me… was always their for me when I needed him . Everyone says I’m the strongest person but really I don’t feel strong at all. 5 weeks since I buried him . We had a holiday planned to Benidorm in may. We were talking about our wedding the year after. We had a lovely home and 2 dogs… even the the people that r tje life and soul of the party are the ones that are hurting inside: I’ll never forget him.


I am so sorry for your loss. There are no words I can say to take away your pain, but everyone on this site is on this terrible journey. I’m close to 4 months losing my husband unexpectedly and understand your feelings. We will never forget our partners/spouses, I lost part of me when he died. Just take one day at a time and reach out whenever you need to release your feelings. Sending hugs your way.

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I am so sorry for your loss. It’s got to be incredibly difficult to lose him to suicide. I pray that you recognize that is not your fault and that you can give yourself grace and time to heal. Hugs from me to you. I understand what you mean about being the strong person. That’s been me as well. Then, when things go wrong, you wonder who will be strong for you. It’s difficult. This kind of forum is really helpful.

Are you in the States? I noticed you had Michigan in your profile. I’m from Indiana. Close to New Buffalo.