In January my fiancée, and mother of my daughter, passed away after a 9 month fight against AML Leukaemia. She was 32. Since then I’ve concentrated on our daughter (who is soon to turn 2) and don’t feel like I’ve even begun to address my own grief.
She was the bedrock of us as a couple, so strong so thoughtful and so capable, I just feel completely lost without her. I’m petrified im making mistakes in raising our little girl. I’m so lonely and despite support of loved ones I feel like nothing can ever fill this yawning void in my life. I have the usual feelings of guilt as well. When I have a good day it feels like a betrayal almost. Whereas I was always positive about my life going forward all I see is nothingness. Just feeling a little lost.