Kennysgirl, yes it’s all normal. It’s shocking isn’t it. I was diagnosed with complicated grief/PTSD following g the death of both my sons aged 33 and 36 then sixteen months ago my beloved husband died after only being ill for a few weeks. It was just unbearable and still is. We have to allow the grief and shock., You can only take one day. One hour at a time hun. You have to do whatever it takes … cry and grieve it’s all you can do. I’m so sorry you are feeling like this. It did help me to write in a journal every day … all my thoughts a d feelings surrounding their last breaths/death etc. I write to my husband in there. It does help a bit. De ding you hugs and understanding. Love Sue 
