Seen this online and thought I’d share it with you all.
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Thank you for sharing @Cjmpr, it’s just how I feel within a huge dark hole. The most dreadful feeling.
Sending love xx
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It’s so awful. Still doesn’t feel real. I’m having a terrible day, constantly crying and feel so alone. Just want my soulmate back 
xx
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I have had a terrible day too. Nothing is the same anymore. I hate living alone and miss everything from our wonderful life together.
I am trying to stay focussed but my confidence has gone.
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@Cjmpr I am so sorry you are having a terrible day and feel so alone. I’m glad you reached our to people on here, we are a great support network for each other. The clutches of grief can feel so all consuming so I have learnt just to go with it and it time it releases its grip a little to allow us to breathe. I lost my darling man in January, and the thought of him gone still takes my breath away. I do have better days now, tears are still not far away, but I do see shafts of light when once there was none. Hold on, one small step at a time. You are amongst friends here you are not alone. Much lovexx
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@Cjmpr @Rome18 @sandi
I’m also having a really bad day today as well, I went to church this morning and lit a candle and wrote in the memory book, thinking of you all as we go through this journey together 
xx
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@Steffers Sorry it’s a really bad day for you, I find weekends are the worst. I hope lighting the candle and the memory book brought you some comfort. Hopefully tomorrow, your grief is kinder to you. Much love xx
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Absolutely spot on. 
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Yup, i huge gaping hole inside me that hurts so much xx
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Yes its very hard to keep going isnt it !! Jeez why has this cruel thing happened to us ? Its not fair !!! I miss him so much and we were happy so why did god take him ??? I didnt want him to go ! He was my world ! I have never asked for much in this world … i just wanted my love to be here … 
Xxx
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I am trying to take one day at a time as @Lonely suggested and not think about the future, as it helped her. I’m not doing well at all this morning. I have photos around of us both looking so happy. I am used to seeing them of course but today, they have sent me back into the black hole of despair again.
Richard loved tennis and played until his early seventies. We always watched the tournaments and really enjoyed Wimbledon when I bought strawberries, I have had to turn the tv off, just couldn’t watch it without him.
Apart from the overwhelming sadness of missing them, we also miss out on shared joys.
I just want my love to be here too.
Sending hugs x
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