Hi. I have to tell you what happened last night.
I woke up in the early hours of the morning and couldn’t get back to sleep (you all know that feeling). I read a book, I watched TV, then I decided to try and meditate. I felt myself floating but didn’t feel asleep. I had a visitation and it wasn’t Brian it was a former partner that I split with just before I met Brian. We greeted each other warmly was friendly and both said that we didn’t regret our 7 yr relationship, hugged and parted. Next I was sitting on a bench by a lake/pond and arms were around me. I asked if this person loved me and he said yes. I turned to my left and stared straight into Brian’s lovely face. He looked so well and handsome and there was a glow over him. I was overwhelmed with happiness and both crying and laughing as I touched his face, his hands, arms continually not wanting to let go. I could actually feel him. He was laughing and talking fast which was unusual for him as he was the quiet one. Then I felt myself slipping away from him and I returned very slowly to reality and my bed. But what a wonderful feeling. You see while I couldn’t sleep I held the framed photo of him against me and talked to him. I wasn’t upset I just wanted to feel him near. As far as I’m concerned he heard and came. I feel blessed. I’m not sure why my previous partner came to me and hope he’s alright.
So don’t give up, keep talking to your loved ones, let them know how much you still love them.
So far I haven’t had a bad day today. I have felt relaxed and quite content with life. I went walking for hours this morning. As usual lovely countryside that I find therapeutic. I stood by a lovely hidden pond in a nature area and watched the ducks, and moorhens. My dogs played on the edge of the water and Bugsy (the little one) walked along a log, when he stepped off at the other end the water was too deep for him and he had to swim for the first time in his life. He turned towards the middle of the pond and I visualised having to go in after him, but he turned again and was non the worse when he landed on dry ground. You may wonder why I’m wittering on but when I am out walking and taking in the nature around me this helps me to feel comfort that I will one day find that glimmer of light more permanently but my Brian will still be visiting me to give me comfort which is what he has done today and guess what it’s my birthday as well. Don’t think about that though, I say I’m a recycled teenager!!!