Tomorrow is gonna be a rubbish day; it’ll be two years since my dad died (who i still don’t feel I’ve had time to grieve for), and my husband has his oncology appointment. Both my husband and I know this is the end of the road treatment wise but no doubt hearing it won’t be nice,
When I picked my eldest up from football training he asked where his Dad was (up until now he’d always try and watch training from the car). It gave me the opportunity to explain it all again in full and what to expect, How I held back the tears I’ve no idea. I really shouldn’t have to be telling a 12 year old and a 14 year old what to expect when their Dad is going to die.
Life well and truly sucks… it’s times like this I wonder if I should have had kids as I don’t want them to be in pain. I can handle my own pain but not theirs.
Will be thinking of you tomorrow. Kids are resilient, don’t hold it back from them. I’ve read in grief books that kids cope well hearing the honest truth. They suffer more in later life if they are not given the opportunity to bear the grief when it comes. xxx
Hi, I’m feeling abit better today actually. My husband and I managed to go to the costa drive through (for me) then to the common. I wheeled him round in the wheelchair. Was nice to get out even if it was only for an hour.
