I’m just checking in to see how everyone is doing. I’m distracting myself with TV and will be in bed before 12. To anyone struggling we are in this together and I’m here if you need to talk. Love to you all xxx
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Hope your doing as well as you can be too x
Not doing well at all. Cried a lot today. Hasn’t helped with power cut. After power cut tv sound bar won’t work and have to replace batteries in riser recliner.
Haven’t been sleeping so exhausted and year starts with 8 visits to surgery.
2024 already looking bad.
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Im doing much the same as you. Well get through this even if it doesnt feel like we will. Sending lots of love to everyone x
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Same. Rubbish tv, early to bed. Part of me wants to stay up, to live every single last second of the year that still had John in it, but it feels like losing him all over again.
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Oh dear sending love x
Same here, it’s tough for us all x
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We shall wake up tomorrow and it will be a new year, it’s already looking like not a very good one I’m feeling unwell and I’m panicking its something bad need to make doc app Tuesday.
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@Misprint ,I know easy for me to say, but please try and not worry , but defo phone Dr on Tuesday . This time of year is just 
for all of us missing our partners , mind the rest of the year just as bad . Sending love and hug xtake carex
I know what you mean. I had been so worried about getting through Christmas I hadn’t really thought much about New Year’s Eve, but now I’m here I just don’t want to let go of the year that Andrew died in. Feel strangely guilty about going into a new year without him 
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I feel the same as all of you. Today is hitting me really badly. I just don’t want to leave him further behind. I know if I go to bed early I won’t sleep, but I think it will break me if I’m here at midnight on my own without him. X
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Have been full of cold for the last 4 days and feeling dreadful, seen no one since Wednesday and have spent most of today in tears. Don’t want to remember the past year and not looking forward to the new one. Will be going to bed soon and couldn’t care less if I never woke up again.
Just had a phone call from my daughter, and I know she would be devastated if she knew how I felt so once again spent 30 minutes talking to her and putting on a positive face. I really hope that this feeling will go as I don’t know how long I can go on like this. It’s like I’m leading two lives, one when I’m out with other people and a different one when I’m here alone 
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Hi to you all. Today has been difficult. I decided to stay on my own this evening and have just got ready for bed. I know what you mean about feeling guilty about letting go of the year that my husband died in but keep telling myself it is just another day. Sorry about your power cut Sandra. We had one just before Christmas and it was off for 7 hours. I hope you are ok and sometimes it is better to cry than bottle things up. I wish you all love and we will get through this. 
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Just get through it as best we can. Same feelings as everyone else. Watching whatever is on TV. Not at all sleepy so no point going to bed. My mind is way too busy; not in a good way. Also the fireworks will kick off later. I really hate the loud bangs.
Thank you all in this excellent community for all the understanding and support you give. x
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@Annde , I know exactly how you feel . I put on the act Infront of my kids and grandkids, even at work now . This is the only place I can put my true feelings on , and let it all out , I know people on here understand , I have been doing this for over two years , sitting on my own , my mind takes me to happier times , but then the tears start, and I just want to know why , why my life ruined, why my gorgeous kind husband , who had so much to give ,so much life left to live . I’m 61 now and hope I don’t live till I’m old … Hope your cold clears soon , nothing worse when we feel poorly , and no one to look after us and bring us comfort , xtake carex
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Hi Jerry, I hate the fireworks as well. I put on headphones and am watching Frasier reruns on my tablet. I can’t deal with the New Year festivities and the crap on TV. Hope you are ok. It is awful when you mind goes into overdrive and it is really hard to stop. Take care all of you and text if it gets too much. Can’t see me getting to sleep anytime soon.
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100% get the busy mind
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Thanks @Billie7, that’s really kind of you and much appreciated. Can you believe it but muppets are already letting off fireworks!
I have found this you tube video helpful if anyone is interested but it might not be for everyone. https://youtu.be/csA9YhzYvmk?si=7uJLiTCtdzqXWh7v. I hope I have copied this correctly. X
Hi Jerry. They have been setting them off for a week near me. It makes the evenings even worse but I realise most people are just enjoying themselves so I have decided that as I am not joining them and I can’t beat them I will bloody well ignore them and get the headphones on. Xx