Its just over 7 weeks since Steve passed away so suddenly. He was just 58. He was the love of my life we did everything together, we also worked together running our business. We were so blessed, our lives were entwined and we truly lived life to the full.
We had so many plans for our future, We loved Spain and had been looking at a small apartment to move into in September this year. We had mulled over it for a couple of years and decided that life’s too short, let’s go for it.
I just cant believe Steve has gone. I’m so heartbroken, its so so painful. We were so happy. All our plans have gone now, it breaks my heart.
I just find myself lying in bed for days on end, it so hard to get out of bed. Strangely, though I feel quite safe there. I know its not healthy for me but I just don’t have the will to attempt to move or even try to do anything. The only time I go out now is to my doctors for more medication.
I can’t imagine any life without Steve. Does this really get better.
I have read so much on this community site which i know we can all relate to. I’ve also read so many books about grief and how people try to deal with it. I know I need to try and help myself but I just feel so lost. Nothing means anything to me any more, nothing to look forward too. I’m just so empty.
How do you get through such heart ache. Xx