My mother passed away twelve years ago in July and I’ve still not addressed it really.
I feel terrible guilt and I suffer now from anxiety, stress and depression.
I need to find some sort of solution to this as it is deeply affecting my personal and professional life.
Dear Graham,
Welcome to the Online Community. I’m so sorry your mother died; you must miss her very much.
I hope you find our community helpful. Here you can talk about your grief as much as you need to - all our users have gone through similar experiences and they will understand much of what you are feeling.
Are you receiving any kind of counseling or bereavement support? It seems that you’re really struggling, so if you haven’t done it already, it could be a good idea to tell your GP about how you are feeling so they can advise you and maybe refer you for extra support. You can also contact Cruse Bereavement Care for free confidential support: https://www.cruse.org.uk/
A lot of people in our community have lost their mothers - some of them also a few years ago. While you wait for more responses to your post, maybe it could be helpful to read and reply to some conversations between others who have lost a parent, for example:
https://support.sueryder.org/community/life-after-bereavement/cant-forget-my-mothers-last-days
https://support.sueryder.org/community/coping-death-loved-one/i-still-miss-my-mum
Do not hesitate to ask us if there’s anything we can help you with.
Best wishes,
Irene