Views on heaven

Sorry for the very long post but it is something I have been thinking about alot recently. Please skip over this if it’s too much.
I like to read other people’s views on the idea that there is something beyond this world. I’m not religious and I don’t believe in heaven and hell. I would dearly love to believe there is something though - maybe be joining some sort of Universal energy?
After my dad died nearly 12 years ago, I lost any faith I might have previously had. Dad wasn’t religious and didn’t believe in an afterlife. Mum however did. She died just coming up to a year ago now, in March 2021. She used to talk about seeing dad in her dreams and feeling him and her sister close by. She always took white feathers as a sign. She started going back to church while she was well enough. I was pretty harsh, and frankly cruel, because I would shut her down (if only I’d known then what I know now!) When she died she left us a little note which said for us not to be sad as she has gone to be with her beloved husband, our dad. She truly believed that and found comfort in it.
The interesting thing there is that I would often ‘feel’ my dad around in the first few years after he died but wouldn’t want to admit it, so dismissed it. I felt him with me when I walked along the beach where I lived and imagined him in his usual shorts, polo shirt and hat. I felt him shortly after my cousin in Australia died. For some reason I had to get up one night to go into my living room and I ‘felt’ them both on the sofa deep in conversation. When I walked in I ‘felt’ them both stop talking and look at me as if I was interrupting. I apologised and went back out! (That was a bit weird!) Another time I felt dad standing next to me with a sense of sadness when we moved mum out of her house to go into sheltered accommodation and again when we visited the Book of Remembrance at the crematorium on their wedding anniversary. Strangely I have never felt anything from my mum.
Well, I tried to dismiss and rationalise all my feelings and then, five months after mum, my husband died in August 2021. Oh my! I was with him in the hospital and felt him standing at the head of the bed watching and trying to comfort me as I kissed him goodbye. I was frightened to look up as I was convinced I would actually see him. Several times I feel he’s sent me signs when I most need it and now I feel he is just part of me where ever I go.
Now, the rational side of me keeps saying that it’s all wishful thinking but my gut instinct tells me it’s not. I have thought about what I truly believe, rather than what I want to believe and have come to an awkward compromise. I now think that when it’s my time to find out the truth of what comes next either my husband will be there to meet me as I leave this world or there isn’t anything after this and I won’t know any different.
All I can say is that if it gives you comfort to believe in any sort of afterlife, who is any one else to scoff or contradict? I guess that’s the difference between faith and certainty but the older I get the more I realise how little I really know for certain. I was that person who dismissed other people’s beliefs as wishful thinking and I’m ashamed to admit it but at least I know who I can trust with my feelings and who I can’t. I know I can trust people here not to judge me.
Wishing you and every one here, peace, strength, and courage as you each continue your journey.

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I was neutral towards it but after my mom passed away in Jan this year I have read so much, watched so many videos, read other people’s experience and have started strongly believing in it. It brings me comfort. I know I will meet my mom one day and until that day she is actually with me. I feel her sometimes around me. I heard her voice calling my name and it was so clear.
I watch Matt Fraser videos and it seems all right and logical to me.
A lot of people who went to medium have shared positive experiences. I am waiting for a few months and then planning to go to one.
I believe in afterlife and I think our loved ones are always around us.

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Hello JjBee,
I truly believe your loved ones are coming to you because they desperately need you to believe there is life after death.
I feel my Son Robbie with me all the time, n now we have a “special time “ we chat, which is on my cycle ride, which I do every day.
My Mum passed away literally 3 weeks before Robbie took his own life, but I have only ever felt my mum with me a couple of times.
Trust your instincts, they are rarely wrong.
One day recently I was feeling low n missing my Rob, n I called out
“I wish you were still here, Robbie “
Seconds later, my tv came on!
Bearing in mind my tv controllers were nowhere near me, in a pot pointing at the CEILING!
Also, you need to press BOTH gadgets for the tv to come on!
NOBODY could EVER convince me that was a coincidence!
No need to be ashamed or regretful of not believing in things previously.
Your Mum would be delighted you do now!
God bless you x

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I believe there is somewhere else after seeing some amazing spiritualists so I know they are still somewhere able to communicate. Where that is I’m not sure I just know my late husband called it up there. I just find it hard because I’ve never heard anyone past that I’ve spoken too explain where they are but they do explain who they are with. Just my opinion. I saw a spiritualist in crewe recently who was amazing but I know it’s not for everyone and I have seen some pretty terrible terrible one’s too. Xx

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