What purpose do I have now I have no dad?

My dad died suddenly in February of this year and boy do I miss him, I’ve tried to stay as positive and up until his funeral I was slowly ploughing on and getting on with it. Now the funeral is over thats when my grief has set in, I miss my dad so much I didn’t think I would experience grief like this. Last week I stayed at my parents house (as my mom went away) and I cried everyday I was by myself, I just feel so lonely and empty. My parents would have celebrated their 25th wedding anniversary this year, I miss my dad so much. I feel I have no purpose in life, I was at university doing a healthcare course but i’ve had to put it on hold.

Each week just gets harder and harder I always ask my dad why did you leave me? I’m having private counselling sessions - although talking about my grief helps nothing nor anyone/anything helps. Some days I keep saying to myself I don’t want to wake up today, why did God take my Dad so early???

🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲. I’m just numb and empty at the moment.

Hello TEG1989,

I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling since you have lost your father. I’m so sorry to hear how you are struggling with your grief and how you are feeling; it sounds really hard for you. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.

You may also find the information pages on our website helpful - if you have a spare few minutes, please do take a look: https://www.sueryder.org/how-we-can-help/bereavement-information.

I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.

Thank you again for sharing – please do keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.

Take care,