I know how it is when no one has time.
it leaves those of us sad sensitive souls with too much time to think and brood and hurt.
I have such thin skin … people seem so robust and vibrant. and I am just jello … a rabbit.
I feel so sad. is the world so hard and busy? it is like the machine above keeps everyone running. sometimes like today I wish my life were over. I know my dad was so sweet and sensitive … I wish I were with him and mother instead.
I am utterly lost … this world is so busy and cold
Hello @berit, thank you for sharing this with us. I’m sure some of our members will relate to how your feeling of being lost- it is understandable having lost two of the most important people in your life. I just wanted to let you know that you have been heard.
@berit I can relate to how you are feeling. I have returned to the UK after living in Cyprus for 14 years with my recently departed husband (4 months ago now but feels like a life time). I had hoped to settle back with family and fiend new friends and sttemp to slowly make a life for myself. Sadly it has not worked out with family and adapting to something that feels so alien so I have now taken my house off the market in Cyprus and will return to attempt to make a life for myself surrounded by my genuine friends I have made over the years. I agree that when you are going through such trauma after loosing people that were such a big part of our lives, it appears that people seem cold and distant. I’m not sure if it’s because they don’t know how to deal with our grief or whether it’s because they are not going through what we are going through that they don’t appear to care. I hope you keep posting on here and getting some support from those of us that can relate to your feelings and are at different stages of our grief. Take care and look after yourself.
I see you have decided to return to your home in Cyprus and I wish you the very best of luck.
I almost gave up my home, a place I had never felt I gelled with over 30 years but it was my husbands birth town. When I could go I found I didn’t want to. Everything was familier to me and gave me comfort.
Please, if you can, keep us informed how you are getting on as it might help other people who are tempted to move.
@Pattidot Thank you for your kind comments and support. My husband is buried in the village where we lived in Cyprus and I feel that my heart will always be there and I can be close to him. Not going to be easy as our house will feel very empty, especially as a our beloved rescue animals are also no longer there. I am trying to stay positive that I will be able to grieve surrounded by some good genuine friends. I will keep the group updated and I hope and pray that every member who is suffering at this time continues to get the support that is so needed during their darkest days. Take care and look after yourself.