3 months in and everything is ‘back to normal’. People are back at work, school, living their lives, going on holidays and I’m still in a haze of disbelief. I feel like I’m dreaming and I’ll wake up to find it has been a nightmare. My neighbour lost his partner before Christmas and he already has a new lady friend. I can’t even believe I will ever love anyone again! I have a job and family and nobody knows what I am going through. How can people move on and love again? All I’m doing is waiting for the day we can be together again and I could have decades ahead of me. I’m not suicidal and I’m trying to enjoy life, I’m putting such a brave face in it, but it is oh so very hard xx
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@Dublingirl - 3 months in for me too and I know what you mean about ‘back to normal’. A lot of friends & family seem to think that once the funeral is over that’s it, and everything is ok for you - off you go, move on etc. Well it’s not ok really. Don’t lose heart though - we can and will move on - it won’t be the same life that we had but it doesn’t mean in time that it can’t be a good life - just different. Take care and keep posting 
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I’m 3 months in too and yes it does feel like everyone is back to normal except for me. As @JustSomeBloke says we will get through this. Don’t know how or when but we will. Try not to compare you journey with others. Our grief pathways will all be different.
There is nothing wrong with trying to enjoy life. It doesn’t mean you aren’t also grieving your loved one. Take each day as it comes x
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@doughtyj @Dublingirl Enjoying the little pleasures in life are still important as is laughter. I’m off out for a meal with my partner’s daughter & her husband tonight as they’re in the area on holiday. We’ll have a nice meal, have a laugh and maybe a few tears too. We shouldn’t feel guilty about having fun or finding something funny - at the end of the day I know my partner wouldn’t want me to be a miserable old sod and I don’t intend to be (well maybe sometimes ).
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Well said and enjoy your evening!
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You are all so right - I know that he would want me to go on and be happy. I could have decades more to live and there is a whole big world out there and I have people who love me! He has just left such a huge hole in my life. I don’t know how many times a day I pick the phone up to text him or to send him a silly photo or a joke. I have a holiday coming up that I’ve been dreading, but am trying my best to look forward to it and enjoy the sunshine. I can’t stay in the house forever! I’d want the same for him xx
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I lost my mother 7 weeks ago and I’m finding life unbearable right now. I am off to an event later that I booked early last year and was looking forward to it. Now I feel anxious about even going and my anxiety is through the roof. Obviously I want to try and live and enjoy my life for my Mum but I’m finding it extremely hard right now. It will be the first time I’ve gone out to ‘enjoy’ myself since she passed. I hope it doesn’t feel like this forever 
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Hi @Jess1 I hope that you enjoy this event later. We’re allowed to enjoy ourselves I hope it all goes well for you. Maybe tell us all about it sometime. Best wishes.
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Lol I am going to a WWE show in Manchester 
I’m hoping it takes my mind off things even if it’s for a couple of hours. I think me avoiding things is making me worse anyway.
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Thanks, I really enjoyed it, so it was a welcome distraction but as soon as I got home I was in bits again. It’s blooming hard isn’t it