I’m still finding myself crying in public - could be anywhere - on the bus, when I’m walking alone among the pavement, upon hearing a particular song. My home still so very quiet. I have kept an LED candle light on all the time ever since my partner died suddenly in November last year. I’m still not back at work. I’m eating okay but difficulties falling to sleep. He’s on my mind every day. Fortunately I shall be commencing a course of grief therapy soon. Don’t forget grief come in many guises - loss of relationship or family pet or loss of psychological safety at work all feel like grief! I wish others well who are going through any of this. You are not alone.
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I was doing great til my Milestone. Whatever that is for you. Then it’s Book Two, Chapter One. Starring You.
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I know how you are feeling Qaz. I lost my husband in November last year. The hurt is so deep. I too can cry at the slightest thing. This weekend has not been good. The loss of him is hard to come to terms with I don’t think I ever will. If he knew the chasm he has left the tears I shed he would be so unhappy. Yet I keep being told ‘it will get better’ when??
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I also lost my husband suddenly in November last year and this past week has been punctuated by floods of tears. No obvious trigger, I just start crying wherever I am. Seems to be worse than ever. I miss him every minute of every day and my heart goes out to you and everyone else who’s suffering.
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I’m finding it worse than ever too. The slightest thing and I’m sobbing. If this is after 3 months I’m frightened as to what the next months will be like. I miss my husband SO much there’s no respite from all this hurt. I’m sending you a hug as we all need one 
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I too lost my husband in December totally unexpected . I struggle every minute of every day. I can’t understand that he’s gone and won’t ever come back. So many of us are in deep profound grief . It’s a horrible path to walk. I also cry at the most unexpected times or for the most unexpected reasons. Life is lonely grey and cold ( not just the weather). So many of us are in this awful experience . I send best wishes to you and all of us on this forum. I hope that eventually we can all find at least acceptance and some kind of peace in our lives. Bless you all.
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I’m thinking of you
So many broken hearts on this forum we all need each other.
Take care you are not alone 
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Hi I lost my darling husband last November after a long illness, like most I find myself crying anywhere anytime, I feel so sad the house is empty I need to have the radio or the TV on just so the house is not quiet. I find myself looking through his wardrobe at his clothes aftershave etc, my heart just aches with sadness. I keep getting asked how I am? I always say ok thank you but I am crumbling inside, I just hope in time I can start to feel more like myself instead of a weeping mess. I have found reading other messages helpful and reassuring
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Rosa5
I too lost my husband last November. The days since his passing are endless, feel like a robot, get up, get through the day, go to bed and repeat. Yes tears come very easily, sleep doesn’t. All I can think about is his last horrendous week due to cancer. A vision I can’t dispel. I’m not ok, how do I go on from here, I really don’t know. His clothes remain in the bedroom I’m not able to deal with those yet. I spray his deodorant in the bathroom so I can smell him. I get into bed each night cuddling one of his t-shirts. Life will never be the same. Grief? Torture. Big hugs 
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I am very sorry you are suffering it is a strange path. I sometimes wear my husband’s aftershave or put it on a sleeve. Sending you comfort 
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There are so many posts on this site on various aspects of grief we’re feeling.
I do try to read as many as I can.
It is very evident we are all at varying stages of this grief storm that hit us all hard.
I appreciate everyone that spends time leaving messages, I also try to respond to many.
I know I am not alone (even though I do feel very much alone at times) you all give me support, comfort, a listening ear.
I thank you all and if I can say - I do need you to help me through this 
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Rosa5 I am just like you ,I tell people I’m coping when really I’m not . Im surprised my tv hasnt blown up it’s on so many hrs from getting up to going to bed just to stop the silence . We are all struggling one way or another. This is a nightmare we are all stuck in. As they say just try to take it one day at a time and hope one day things will get easier. Love to all on here suffering a bereavement.
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Keep scrolling and posting when you need to.
It really helped me at the start of this awful journey. I first came on here last April 12th my husband passed last March 4th and I have dipped in and out ever since.
I have made a very good friend through here which has helped me more than I can say. It’s one day at a time to get through this.
The pain of losing our loved one never goes but it shifts I can’t explain it. Some days there are fewer tears some days none and some a tsunami you just have to go with it.
In a few weeks it will be the year anniversary I don’t know how I feel about it but I have to except it and what my emotions do that day just go with them.
I will NEVER stop loving him but I know he is never coming back so I carry the memories in my 
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