I’m also in bed. its all I look forward to now, the sweet oblivion of sleep if I can get it.
I honestly don’t know what to say. That is more problems than I could handle. I think you need help from someone, I just don’t know who or where to start but there are clever people on here who think clearer than me who I hope will offer good advice.
Of course you can’t handle that overwhelming amount of stuff, I don’t think anyone could. You’ve done the right thing coming here.
Regarding your dad’s funeral, do you have any way if asking if they could live stream it so you could watch online. Or if the minister could send you the written paper of what he will say… I think if you can hear what is said about your dad at least you could learn some things about him that way since a funeral lists the essence of that person’s life.
Is there someone who could ask for that on your behalf or was your auntie the only one who could have?
If not if you have a way to find out which funeral director, Crematorium or something that could be a way to request this. Just an idea, quite possibly useless but just in case…
My husband’s funeral was livestreamed, it took some pushing but cost under a hundred quid and I could also watch it again later as I downloaded it. It could be something that would comfort you a bit to learn some more about your dad is all I’m thinking since you miss out on the funeral and everywhere should be able to do it now during these covid times… I’ll find the name of the company and post it here later.