I’m really not looking forward to the lighter nights and definitely not looking forward to being in the garden.
He would be so disappointed if I don’t keep the garden nice but I cannot go into his potting shed where he did all his magic. Too full of him his radio his specs everything 
I will have to muster up some courage try my best this is going to be one big ordeal and I know tears will be in abundance.
Grief is so deep never ending and if one more person tells me I’ll feel better soon 
I don’t want platitudes I want my husband.
4 Likes
Hi, I know exactly how you feel, my husband loved his garden, he worked wonders to keep it nice, im also dreading the light nights because of the garden, how can I keep it nice, too many memories, its too much, people say you can do it, they dont know what im going through, its 7 months now and still as raw as ever, I just want my husband back 
Babycake
So tending to his garden has begun - it isn’t easy Babycake you need to prepare for how you will feel ….
What a hard bad day I’ve had, I mowed the lawn with his mower, trimmed the edges with his shears making a start on the garden he so loved and enjoyed.
I could see him there I really could but then reality hit, he isn’t here. He really isn’t here
How I would give everything to have my lovely husband back. So the lighter nights are coming, oh my goodness. This isn’t how it’s supposed to be, grief is never ending I’m at 4 months and already it’s too long.
I hope he could see me in the garden with tears running now my face.
My love for him will never fade
3 Likes
Its awful I walk round the garden looking at all memories, just wanting him to walk out of the shed and talk to me, its terrible, I just want him back, its like 7 months have passed in a daze, how im going to get through i just dont know at all
2 Likes
What a horrible horrible time this is for us all 
3 Likes