Hello @Tiaposy
I can relate to your feelings of jealousy, much as we are glad & thankful that others pull through their treatment/condition …it can feel like a slap in the face for everything we have endured. Our lives have imploded, theirs gets to continue in some way shape or form. I guess we are only human at the end of the day. My experience was compounded by the fact although the person recovered, it was only temporary for a few months & they subsequently passed…at which point I felt immensely guilty for my earlier jealousy.
It’s an awful emotional rollercoaster, but I try and be kind to myself and, like I say, we are only human…don’t beat yourself up…we have enough to contend with.
I’m sure your friend will continue to improve, my friend’s circumstances were very different.
Take care…sending hugs xx