Hello @Sarah37, I’m so sorry for the loss of your aunt. It sounds like it was very traumatic for you - well done for recognising this, and for reaching out for support.
I wanted to share this short article with you on grief and PTSD - you may be able to relate to some of it. Mind’s information on anxiety and panic attacks also has some self help strategies that you may find useful.
We also have an active and friendly support thread for members who are struggling with panic and anxiety. You can find it here: Anxiety
It may also be a good idea for you to speak to your GP about what you’re going through. It does sound absolutely exhausting, as you say, and you really deserve help and support.
We also offer Online Bereavement Counselling which you might wish to explore. This is free and held via video chat - you can find out more about our counselling service here: https://www.sueryder.org/online-bereavement-counselling
Take good care and keep reaching out,
Seaneen