I am 51 years old. I live with my partner of 30 years, my 29 year old son, my 25 year old daughter and my Emotional Support Assistant Dachshund JED.
The past 8 years have been the worst times of my life due to the sudden passings of my loved ones.
Septmber 2017, 2 days after my birthday and 2 days before my daughters 18th birthday, my brave, strong daddy laid down on his bedroom floor and went to sleep forever.
January 2018 my Uncle suddenly fell asleep forever.
October 2018 my 50 year old best friend also suddenly fell asleep on her sofa forever.
I became my mummy’s carer due to her having a stroke which caused her to break her ankle when she fell over. Unfortunately she got sepsis and had her right leg amputated to her knee. Concentrating on mummy’s care I never had time to grieve my past passings.
Mummy made it 4 years without daddy BUT…
March 2021 she got an infection and she fell asleep in hospital with me and my older brother by her side.
My brother and I made a wish…no more bad news for at least 10 years…WELL that never happened, December 2021 my brother started acting very strange!
By late January 2022 he was diagnosed with stage 4 Glioblastoma then beginning of February had brain surgery to try to remove it Unfortunately they couldn’t retrieve it all so was then diagnosed with terminal brain cancer. He was given 15-18 months, thankfully we were brought up as Army children and taught to be strong! My brother has exceeded that. He is still with me for now.
For me, I haven’t been able to find that strength because I’m weak and totally useless, my daddy and mummy would be so disappointed!
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