I lost my Joyce 14th April after a short vitious attack of ovarian cancer. We did have a chance to tell each other what we meant to each other. She was so brave teaching her stupid bloke what was necessary to survive. I wake each day and wonder why I’m still here! Together 47yrs, married 45yrs. She said she’d always be with me and I do feel her presence. The greatest peace is repeating our country walks and bike rides, she’s very near. A country girl at heart.
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I lost my 34 year old son 8 months ago, i don’t know who i am anymore i miss him so much and wish i could see him one more time to tell him i love him, my life has been turned upside down and inside out im so sorry for your loss i feel your pain xx.
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I totally relate to every word you wrote life is just so cruel x
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I understand everything you are saying I lost my wonderful husband June 2nd 2021
32 years together my 1st love
I’m just existing each horrendous day
Nothing is real anymore I miss him so so much
Please take care x
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I find it so very hard to cope with the loss of my lovely Colin He died in July2021 , at-our home in rural Finistere, where we had lived for 18 years
The complete trauma of selling up, giving away so much of my happiness and moving back to England
I have only just been able to truly grieve
Okay, there are people about bui I feel so alone
I have been through so much emotional I just want to curl up and hide .I miss him so much
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Went out with 2 good friends tonight was lovely…but just wanted to be with my husband…feel him holding my hand …just needed that secure feeling…that love i miss so much…never thought this would happen to us …love to everyone feeling this pain 
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Hayley…I know how you feel my luv.Nearly 2 years since I lost Chris…my life is so very different I also had to sell our home and move away so in the space of four months I lost everything.I try to be positive but it’s so hard.I miss him so much .I must have been dreaming last night cos I woke myself up shouting his name.I am not usually such a dramatic person but this has changed life and me.I say hold on please
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I feel your pain my friend
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Only 36 …dear god
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Thank you
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Hi @noah, welcome to the Community. I am so sorry to hear about your husband and the upheaval in your life that has followed.
It’s important to take one day at a time and be kind to yourself. It may be that you could benefit from registering with our recently-launched Grief Self-Help Service which has some really useful information to help you cope with what you are going through right now.
Another good place to get support is Cruse Bereavement. They offer a helpline, email support, counselling and support groups through their local services. Contact them on 0808 808 1677, helpline@cruse.org.uk or via their website
Please remember Samaritans are always available 24/7 to talk about anything that you are worried about in confidence. You can call them on 116 123.
I do hope you find our community helpful. Keep reaching out and please know that we’re here for you.
Take care,
Mick
Online Community team
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I lost my Paul in October 2021. I have tried to get on my life but I think of him every day. I feel like a part of me is gone. Something is missing and I’m not quite whole. Some days, its just a few tears. Other days, I sit in my apartment and bawl my eyes out. When will this pain subside? I want to see him and tough his face. I want to talk to him and hold him in my arms. I ache so bad.
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Totally get that,we put on a face but will never feel whole again as you said x
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