Hello @Missyfox26,
Thank you for so bravely reaching out. I’m so sorry to hear about brother. I can hear the love and pain in your words.
You are not alone. You might want to connect with @BenSmith11. They recently posted this thread where they shared their experiences of sadly losing their brother who had a learning disability. You may understand some of what each other are going through.
You mentioned losing your motivation for art, and wanting to honour your brother. Maybe there is a way to combine the two. You could create a memorial portrait. Or is there is an arts charity you could fundraise for? These are just some ideas that you might want to explore.
The community is here for you, whether you want to chat, ask advice or just get something off your chest.
Take good care,
Seaneen