Hello @licmyfam,
I’m so sorry for the loss of your son. I just wanted to say thank you for reaching out and let you know that you have been heard and are not alone.
Sadly, many of our members have experienced the loss of a child. There’s a very active support thread here you might want to look at: Loss of our son aged 27
I can see that you’re in the US. Please do know that there is always someone out there to help you through this. If you think it could be helpful to talk to someone on the phone about how you’re feeling, you can find local support on the Befrienders Worldwide website.
Hopefully someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to share these links with you.
Take good care
Seaneen