If you are totally in love with someone, how many years together doesn’t matter. If he’d died 30 years ago the grief would have been same, I’m 75 this year so hopefully won’t have too many years without him xx
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I totally agree with you x
I miss him everyday, just can’t get my head around that he’s gone
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Nor me, try to fill my days but nothing really helps x
Its been 4 months since I lost him and I still can’t believe he’s gone, I miss him everyday and I just want him back x
The world just doesn’t feel real anymore I wake up and go through the motions but I have nothing to give I’m just empty now. I can’t bear the sadness but know I have to go on each day for everyone. Just totally exhausted and miss the me I was before I lost him. I look at photos of us happy and feel so foolish I could have been so naive to not realise what was coming. I don’t know myself anymore.
One day we were just living live getting over the Christmas rush and the next I was in ICU on New Years Eve knowing he wasn’t going to live and I’m just stuck there praying for a miracle that never came. I still can’t believe this is real. My whole world changed in 48 hours. He was just gone
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Gina23, it’s was the same for me, had a wonderful Christmas, then on the 29 Dec he was rush into hospital had days when i was told to get ready to say goodbye he had developed pneumonia then he started to get better, I visited every day told him he would soon be home even doctors said he would be home soon, the day he died we were texting each other told him I was just about to leave home and how much I loved him about 30 minutes later I had that dreadful call from the hospital to say he wasn’t well it’s an hour drive to get there 
I was to late
I didn’t celebrate xmas, new year or my birthday, my husband’s funeral was 20th December. Don’t think I’ll ever celebrate again, whats the point.
Every one asked me what I wanted, I told them it was the one thing I couldn’t have and that was to have my beloved husband back.
The next birthday would have been his 51st in june.
Like you, I just can’t be bothered with anything anymore, I’ve lost the motivation and spend most days in bed as the house (should’ve been our forever home, its just a house now) is now empty and quiet, I miss seeing him sat in his computer chair in the living room and I miss seeing him on his seat at the dining table (which I don’t use anymore).
I would give anything to have him back and to hear him say hey baby I love
Sending you a hug not much I know, 
my husband died Jan 3rd his birthday 21 st Jan, life without is no life 
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Yes I agree with you, I love going to bed hoping and waking up thinking why I did, I just don’t want to be here without him, x
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My husband has been gone for 14 months and I still can’t believe it. Not in denial, just like what happened, how did this happen? Hard to accept still I guess.
You had no time to even try to adjust. I think that’s really rough.