The bits and bobs of mum’s house really get me. Bits of paper that she wrote notes on, remind me of past events and future plans. Keep finding them. The Birthday and Christmas cards she kept with dates on the back. List goes on. Mum was into craft work and my daughter loved nothing more than spending days at grandma’s creating something to bring home and clutter up our house. Now, a lot of her craft stuff has been migrated to our house so our daughter can continue her work. Now we’re talking clutter! There are some unfinished items I have no idea what they were going to be, sad. Mum was always the sewing fixer and a prime example of that is my daughter’s Peter Rabbit which is thoroughly worn now and the only thing holding him together is the talented work of mum’s sewing over the years. Now who is going to do it? I keep thinking, oh mum can fix that, oh no, she can’t can she?
I will keep up the thin veneer of a happy normal person to the outside world but of course we all now what’s underneath don’t we?
I went to the local chippy tonight as we didn’t have any food in the house. I haven’t been there since early August and I didn’t particularly want to go tonight. But I did. I got asked that question I hate, ‘How’s your mum?’ arrrgh! Why is it so difficult to reply to that? I’d find it easier to stick pins into myself.
I hope you all manage to have a pleasant weekend. You’ve all helped me get through another week.
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