Hi Jeanine xx
Firstly I would like to say I’m sorry for your massive loss, as you know how I am feeling, I know how you are feeling. Thank you for taking the time to reach out & share with me. I’m so thankful for people reaching out to me who fully understand. At least we can all be here for each other. I’m sure still having another child with special needs must have made your loss harder to deal with because you couldn’t take time out to truly let yourself grieve yet he must have also been your saviour to a certain degree. I have 6 other children myself, all grown up tho. They don’t need me like Kerry did tho. Yes, I’m still their mum, but I’m not the same mum. I’m sad for them, they lost their sister but they have, in a way, lost their mum too. I’m here, but not really here. Today as been hard, had a couple of breakdowns but that’s my life now. Sending hugs 
& continued strength to you xx
I was a mess at the start too tho before I started volunteering,I didn’t get washed or dressed for a month,the only reason I got out of bed was to let the dog out,she was my saviour really, everyone else gets on with life while we are lost, hopeless and heartbroken.
jeanine it must have been difficult going on with life,did the sibling take your child’s death hard? I hate the fact that my other kids have grown up and left home,it makes me feel so redundant.
Angelof1 do your other kids give you support? remember one day at a time and we can talk freely about our feelings here.sending hugsx
Hi
My son broke down and yes it was very difficult for him to understand there is only 2 years between them and they were very close.
My husband died in last year and now there is only me and Bob my son,
. I get down but I have to keep going for Bob cx
Aww mine were all close,it’s so much harder when they don’t understand,my situation was difficult for my grandson he expects my son to come back.i hope today is going ok for now.
Thanks Foodin
All you can do is show them they are loved
I know my Lizzie knew I bet your son did too xxx
Sorry I’ve not been on but I have been thinking of you all,I was in hospital for surgery and just home again.one of the good things about getting the surgery is I had to come off all my opiates antidepressants and other meds which has brought my grief and anger back to the forefront of my mind .xx
Hi Everyone
Sorry haven’t been here it was Wills 41st birthday and I have been struggling.
What does everyone make of this, my daughter said they are holding a spiritual medium evening at our local hall.
I wasn’t sure I thought they could look you up on Facebook and find information about you, but this was a group meeting no names were exchanged when we walked in.
Anyway this lady spoke to another lady, then came straight to me and started reeling off all these names which I knew every single one and even laughing when she mentioned the family joke that I’m always ironing, then she mentioned Williams name and I completely lost it, I wish I hadn’t because she might have said more, but I was so shocked. I’m still trying to process it.xx
You are so brave I could not have gone.
Hope you are ok
Xx
My son died on the 17th July aged 47 .he had mild cerebral palsy, moderate learning disability,and Epilepsy . He died from secondary bone cancer ,they could not find, primary. He was taken to hospital on 25th of April ,they diagnosed secondary bone cancer. Within 3 months he was dead, I also have a daughter ,who is severely handicapped,it was hard telling her. Life is so unfair,still we had 47 wonderful years of him.A week before he died he also asked the doctor am I going to die, she just said not yet. We were there when he died , he said I got To go now I said where,he said I got to go ,I said where ,He said death.